Tonight my boyfriend and I watched “The Perks Of Being A Wallflower”
It’s a great movie, very inspiring and it makes you realize alot of things.
At the end of the movie he tells us how the doctor told his parents about what his aunt did to him as a young child.
Throughout the movie I didn’t even know what he meant when he said he was getting “bad” or getting “better” I knew there was something wrong wit him but i didn’t know what exactly. I was so curious and he blamed himself for his aunts death because apparently she was going to get his birthday present?
This movie made me cry to be honest and than my past just came back to me, litterally suffocating me. I tried to ignore it, I tried to distract myself from thinking about bad stuff, but I couldn’t stop it from coming and I broke down just before we were about to sleep.
YOU DON’T DESERVE TO BE WITH HIM!
NO BODY LIKES YOU!
YOU DON’T DESERVE TO HAVE FRIENDS!
YOU’RE PARENTS NEVER LOVED YOU!
YOU’RE FAMILY NEVER REALLY CARED!
NO ONE WILL EVER LOVE YOU!
HE DOES’T LOVE YOU!
YOU’RE A PEACE OF SHIT!
YOU DON’T NEED TO BE ALIVE ANYMORE!
YOU HAVE NO PURPOSE ANYMORE! YOU NEVER DID.
I HATE YOU!
YOU’RE A FUCKING SLUT!
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!
I was perfectly fine before I found out what this movie was really about. It didn’t really bother me until we went to bed. I don’t know why it brought my past back, I don’t know why the fuck this is happening again!
Now I just can’t stop crying and all I want to do is, escape.
it’s been a while since i’ve blogged at all. :(
I’ve been busy with work and getting by i havent had time to sit down and tumlble, it’s sad really…
Anyways I’ve decided to do something different with my tumblr. I’ve decided to tell you about my love life. I know it’s so lame and so over-rated or w.e but I think you might like this, but at the same time i don’t really care whether or not anyone does, I’d just like to write about it.
I just wanted to let everyone know that you can really find someone that is completely different from you and fall inlove everyday! It’s crazy actually!
So this is how it all went down…
First Blog will be sometime this week! ^_^
Only reblogging because I’m a greedy bitch who wants money.
Hey doesn’t hurt to reblog ya knoww and if money is involved….
My mom’s paycheck arrives in 4d days, THIS SHIT WORKKSS
chinese feng shui knows about tumblr ?
OMG I didnt notice until today.I reblogged this and got 10 dollars :D
got to pay for stuff somehow so why not.
haha I got money today!!!
Show me the moneyyyy!
MONEY MONEY MONEYYYYYY!